TOOTIE

constantly wondering about the one who got away… it’s kind of like asking yourself was it a mistake? regret? honestly.. my only wonders are.. how do you know if that person is going to be “the-one-that-got-away” or the “thank-god-i-dodged-a-bullet”… you don’t.. i think thats the scariest part in a relationship… well whatever it is, i’m hoping brian isn’t the one that got away… fuck my life! lol

I’m easily annoyed by girls who are weak. Weak minded. Weak hearted. They let these MEN run the way they think or live their lives. I’m sorry, but I can’t stand for that. When you let a man take over your whole life and change it up based on how they live theirs just so you can stay in it, im sorry.. But. I won’t stay around for that.

growing up

Ive always struggled with the question “what do you want to be when you grow up”? i have always said a teacher, doctor, even a cosmetologist because that’s what my parents are. my answers were always typical answers you would hear because it was the normal thing to be. Ive bounced around job to job, really.. not even knowing what i want to become. i thought by now it would have clicked already, but i am honestly still stuck at this mental state of ‘i’ll-never-know’. here i am, a freight billing manager at some small trucking company, not knowing if this will be my job forever. mean while, my parents own a family salon that i should be smart about and probably take over within the next few years that they plan to retire… money wise, i should go for it. ideally, i don’t want to… because; its not my passion. i have a whole bunch a passions; 1) make up 2) hair 3) children. somehow being a teacher is lodged into my head. i really love children and would like to be a kindergarten teacher. my sister is one, and out of all people, i thought she’d be the last… lol I WAS WRONG. maybe i should just take over the salon, and have a whole bunch of children to make up for it.. or maybe not. who the hell knows. im 21, i need to get my shit together.